auntiebodies

Auntiebodies 21jun01 03:52 I wonder what the fatuous expressions can possibly be intended to mean, on the faces and in the body - language of fashion models on cat-walks etc --- and who cares?! 270601 0343 I remember my Uncle Sol used to visit us in Malden (Boston) when i was a kid (he was the sixth of seven children of my mother´s parents (she was born in 1910) and she was number seven) and used to criticize my mother´s housecleaning (doorknobs not quite clean) and always tell me to clean behind my ears; he also mocked my father´s physical awkwardness (Sol was athletic and slender, but my father was pudgy). Now I fantasize telling him off in no uncertain terms; but it would have been counterproductive then, even if I could have. I generally grew up as a spy in a house of nuts. My only sibling is a brother nine years younger than myself, whom my parents succeeded in twisting into my mother´s grotesque monstrous mold. Once when I complained when I was about 11 years old when she was hitting him, she said she was making sure he didn´t turn out like me---she succeeded; those who doubt my reports about my parents, need only see him to know I am accurate.

But my uncle Sol´s wife (whose childbearing capacity was removed surgically, as many in those days) was very nice to me, especially when I was in early childhood.

But I also had another aunt I liked. She was my father´s only sister, he being the second of five children, and she the fourth. She was the intellectual student type, constantly taking courses and eventually becoming a junior-college teacher, altho for several years a secretary; soon after WW2 she married a dentist and gave birth to two children---her main lover having been killed in a B-17 as a gunner in WW2. I have as a major momory of those war years her long bitter sadness, with which I came to sympathize altho eventually my mother and others brought her away from it. In contrast, my mother and other relatives urged our patriarchal family figure known as “Uncle Monis” to allow his feelings out in expression when his son (I never learned if only child or not) was killed in the army in WW2.

But also another aunt, one of my mother´s sisters, was intellectual, and creative as well, writing and getting published books for children. From my mother´s comments about their mother, I inferred that the worshipful attitude hid a nasty woman, and this aunt when I at last in my early twenties met her confirmed my suspicians. Anyway, my maternal grandmother died when I was about three years old, after losing her legs surgically due to diabetes---I cannot seem to remember her, but I know from repeated report that she was an extremely proud and smart person, who used to be respectfully greeted every morning when she went to the bakery for rolls. But one picture is worth more than slavish pretense or ignorance: it is of me at about three months old being held by my mother´s mother standing beside my mother and father, everyone delighted---my grandmother too regal. Anyway, that aunt´s husband died before WW2, of Tuberculosis, and she never had children.

Uncle Monis, I gather, was the hero who urged his relatives, including my father´s parents, to flee to USA a hundred years ago, thus saving the possibility of my surviving The Holocaust (unlike the many relatives who died instead). And I sometimes wonder who they were, and what meeting them would have been like; and also the multitude of others.

But they are all relatives in the abstract concept of PEOPLE --- and the horrors of The First World War were exceeded by the subsequent Influenza Epidemic---so who are we, anyone reading this, anyone not, and what sits in our physical bodies, whether my father or my uncle, or all my aunts innumerable?

And why do we bother, some of us sometimes, to communicate? --- I suggest the answer is that, auntie-paraphrasing Rousseau, People are born on umbilical-cords and are everywhere in love.

One of my aunts was sexy.

250701 19:33 new teens need lots of silly praise, ie,re looks.

070801 17:11 Many teen-agers (meaning also pre-teens-not-pre-pubert) would like to wear only Mao-suits and reside in prison type camps, if sex were provided. The main thing is to avoid competition of attractiveness. Of course justice would have to be maintained.

180801 22:52 topical these days here in Norway is violence of husbands. vast issue. more anon

130901 2210 ABOUT ARRANGED MARRIAGES, IT OCCURS TO ME THAT:

If my parents had arranged a marriage for me with someone I really would want to be married with, what then? I suppose it would have had a deleterious effect upon my character.

I also guess timing would be important: if I was fourteen, or fifteen, or sixteen, or considerably older (like that Bhuto lady)(President (PM?) of Pakistan) --- of course, it would be nice to avoid the exasperations of adolescence. And what if I had a nice time in teen years, and then split (divorced)? Anyway, i am amused that some big shot (or two or three) assigned the World Trade Center catastrophe to attitudes opposed to american free youth-hood etc (religious war) --- appercu (revealing).

2219 joke? survival of the fittest --- refers to brassieres?????? and I just looked up the spelling in Merriam, and see the word first occurs in 1911!!!!!!

2310 Songs like “What do i have to do to make you love me?” have to be forbidden.

061001 2150 There really is a tendency in some women to really feel the angry feelings of her mother towards her father, and to live that and to be with her, instead of actually connecting over to a relationship --- and it may be that she has to have a second marriage before having a chance to have a real relationship ( having rejected her father through her first marriage). This also makes for war which afflicts the children from the first marriage in the usual ways where women are for whatever reason against that first husband. So you have to ask a woman, “Are you imitating your mother´s feelings towards your father (or mother´s father)?”. So, these are trans-generational plagues, and we are starting to recognize this kind of concept, in terms of the way people are transmitting depression and so forth and so on; e g, the baby in the womb picks up any depression in the mother.

2211 Anyway, the notion of repression, generally is illuminated by the problem of Ignorance: in the state of ignorance, certain basic needs may successfully be provided for by standard societal norms, while individuals are uninformed about their own psyches; whereas, in the state of Quasi-Sophistication (e g, intellectual USA), people are thrown on their own devices, with the implicit reward of the potential thrill of insight with attendant self-mastery. This conundrum is at the heart of the political conflicts between types of society characterizable as dedicated to Self-Ignorance (Obedience from cradle to grave), vs dedicated to Self-Awareness (Freedom Eternal).

torsdag 8. november 2001 18:56 cf entry this date in my section “what do men want?”

søndag 18. november 2001 01:22 As a man , I have to remember that females may plan activities generally around menstrual cycle, and sequence of them. And women may helpfully take into consideration that men actually may do that. Perhaps web sites should be dedicated to this mutuality of perspective task. 08:46 To say “It is MY body” is a fallacy. The body represents us (each) in our relationships. 09:17 To explain (as an expert lady on tv did recently) wife-beating after Sept 11, as similar to Boston after Red Sox lost World Series in 1986, shows acceptance of fact that some men conceive of their mates as something to kick. And that is sick and must be rooted out of the mass psyche.